Dreams

Things I dream about daily. In no order

*having a TLM close enough to be involved in
*our future farm
*a house not covered with lead
*being able to grow a garden (lead in soil here)
*having a sacramental marriage (and the children that come with it :) )
*a clean house! ha, that'll never happen!
*community, friends others who think like me (AP, Trad Catholic....................)
*being debt free
*having our own house, even if it's falling apart
*taking a shower

I am sure there are more :) Don't know why I felt like sharing these, just seemed kind of fun.

quick post

My computer is totally on the fritz so I have no clue if I"ll even get to send this. The modem died so we can't get dial up and the wireless doesn't really work. We are trying to save everything (music, pictures, files), but it seems that my cd burner does not work. We plan to wipe out the hard drive to see if it fixes the computer. So that is why I have not been posting or replying, no computer or internet. So if you don't hear from me that is why! :)

Julie

done

So frustrated with this internet. I can NEVER get it to work. It’ll take me all night, seriously, all night to just get it to open one page. It’ll probably take me two days to send this message since that’s a series of about three pages (I’m writing it in word first). The internet is my only connection with other people. It is too hot to walk to the library. How sad does that make me? I just want to stupid internet to work, how much is that to ask, really, how much?? It’ll be months before we can afford our normal internet that works. I need people to talk to. Why does everything have to be such a huge struggle?? Can’t something ever just be easy?

It’s even more than just talking to people, I have people I need to respond to, and I can’t get to my email to do that. Important things like conversion and annulment stuff.

I think I am just going to give up. I’m tired of the fight. It’s obviously only important to me. I’m tired of pulling teeth. I’m done, I simply can not do it anymore. I’m also signing out of one of my most beloved groups. It has come to my attention that my presence there makes people uncomfortable, which I understand, but I can’t handle that anymore, so I’ll leave. Maybe someday I won’t be in such an irregular situation so I’ll be able to go back. I will miss them greatly.

That’s all for now.

Latin Mass

I have been waiting until it was official, and then I didn't get to posting until today. I am so hopeful that now that it's free and clear that we will get a closer Mass. I wonder how we could go about finding a Priest to say the TLM?? Do you just ask? Is that improper? Oh, to have a Latin Mass community near by, pure heaven! I just can't imagine! I am so thankful for the current Pope! He is doing great things for the Church!

Julie

Paul

I just got an email that said his first web page will be gone in a week, so if you want to see those first pictures (from the hosptial), go and check them out. It was kind of sad. He's growing up so fast, I can't believe it. He's over twice the size he was when he was born. I almost can't remember him being so small. I missed so much of his first days. With the next child I am going to hire someone to come daily to do the basic tasks that I worried over.

So go look at him :) http://www.growingfamily.com/webnursery/babypage_view.asp?URLID=1W4N6P8T2X

Growth spurt

Boy oh boy has Paul been growing! He has been an eating machine! Last night at my parents he weighted in at 23 pounds! I can not believe it! I never thought I'd have a 23 pound 4 month old! I now have 3 rolls of film to develop. We are close to out of our hole, so soon we should be able to get them developed! Can't wait to share! He still steals the room where ever we go. He's a cutie pie!

No title again,

I killed my bird. I feel awful. Been having such a rough time lately, I sure didn't need this. Why didn't I give them water this morning when I first saw they needed it. How could I forget. He was a birthday present.

Julie