Friday, October 23, 2009

I hate bad news

There were two things I was really, really looking forward to with getting the internet back. Being able to be a part of the women's Traditional Catholic group (which, sadly, as we are still waiting for the marriage stuff, I don't feel right really being much a part of, just doesn't seem like I deserve to be a part of that right now), and mostly, the AP/ natural parenting group I was a part of. I really needed their wisdom during this time, adding another child to our family, and also just having others who I 'knew' and was really comfortable with to talk about issues with raising kids in a way that most of society doesn't embrace (AP, gentle discipline, so on and so forth).

So for the bummer part, found out today that I won't be able to be a part of that group. I don't know if it's pregnancy hormones or what, but, man, it hurts, a lot. It's rejection in a way that I can't even pinpoint. Wish Paul was asleep so I could just crawl into bed and pretend the day was over, or didn't happen, and honestly cry, yes, I know that is probably stupid to say, but, yeah, that's how I feel. It was a family to me, that I had to take an unwanted break from because of money, and now, it's gone forever. I'll get over it, but that doesn't change the feelings now. Anyhow. I don't want to piss anyone off from that group who may read this, so I'll stop my blubbering childishness.



Mom2BabiesA&I said...

I am so sorry you didn't get back into that group! That is so sad and similar to how I felt when I found out I couldn't be "in" either...a few of us have started up another group and while its a bit slow I have high hopes for the future. Lemme know if you want to know where to find us!

Julie said...

Thanks! I think I'd like to try it, never hurts :). I did go look up your post about it from when you started, so think I'll put in a request to join.

bluememphismama said...

Are you talking about NB? I hope that nothing happened. I've missed having you around, but know that things have been tough for you lately. If you ever want to talk, you can send me an email.

Karen S.

karensiegfried AT gmail DOT com

Julie said...

Sorry for the delay in replying Karen, haven't known what to say. It was NB, and it's still so sad to me. They were like a family, I do miss it greatly.

How are you doing? And Will?

bluememphismama said...

I'm doing good. Will turned 2 just over a month ago and is doing well. I'm sorry to hear that you are upset about not being on NB anymore. I hate it when people leave and can't come back. I'm keeping your blog on my google reader account. I can't wait to hear all about your new baby!