Monday, July 28, 2008

Never underestimate God

If you happen to read here often, you know that I struggle with my faith, often feeling as though God hates me.

Don't want to go into too many details. But He really never does give you more than you can handle. Whenever you get to the point where you feel at the end of your rope, amazing things happen. This has actually happened twice in the last few weeks. I just hope I can remember this when things get hard again.


Sunday, July 27, 2008

cutest thing

Right now, Paul is picking up kittens and putting them in their little kennel they sleep in at night. It's just so cute!

He picks one up, takes it over, puts her inside then closes the door. He can't lock it yet, so usually by time he comes back with another kitten the first has gotten out. He has been at it for 10 minutes or more. Just having a blast with it. :)


Saturday, July 26, 2008

positive intent

It's such a powerful thing to go from assuming the worst of people/situations, to not.

In one of my groups in times past there was a lot of talk of positive intent regarding our children and being gentle with them. It makes so much sense. I still struggle greatly, and can't honestly say I have even tried. I think about it a lot, but putting it into action is much harder. Over the last couple days another group I'm on also started talk about not assuming the worst.

Looking at the world with the best intentions is so much happier than looking at it as a bunch of people who have nothing but ill will. I just wish I had it in me to change my thoughts to a more positive non-critical route. Especially since I constantly feel as though others are judging me for my choices and way of living. Maybe changing the way I think will change how I feel others view me?

Anyhow. I just happen to like this outlook on the world and thought others might want to give it a try as well. So more randomness from me today. Think I'll head to bed now, need to get more sleep!



Just a few random thoughts.

I love the game Zuma! I don't know why, but I do. Play many times a day.

My parents totally hooked Paul up with Little tykes play things this weekend from yard sales. He loves them! A little playhouse thing, a slide and a table. Lots of climbing to do, and he LOVES to climb.

Also, we now have a working fridge! You have no idea how important that is. Currently we have a freezer that works and a small room fridge that doesn't really keep things cool unless you never open it and the temp in the room is never above 70.

Life with a/c is nice. It's so much nicer to be able to sleep while not sweating!

On the note of sleeping, I have been not sleeping well (even with the comfy a/c on!). There is just too much going on in life right now it seems. Need to find something to help me sleep. Not getting enough at all!

I think that's all the thoughts I had to share at the moment. Paul's getting ready to wake from his nap, so should get ready for that.


Wednesday, July 23, 2008

A/C is here!

So we got it fixed up and hooked up. It works well. So nice to be sitting here not sweating! Yay!


Monday, July 21, 2008

a/c countdown

So tonight we are going to Lowe's to try to jerryrig something up for get the a/c working for a little bit. So hopefully time Chip goes back to work we'll have a/c even if I can't get myself to set it lower than 80, at least it would be cooler and not humid! :) I'll try to update tonight on whether or not we found stuff. Lets just hope that all the connections still work! :)


Sunday, July 20, 2008


Today we ended up having dinner at my parents. It was a nice visit and Paul had a blast as usual. Loves going over there. He actually fell asleep pretty early tonight, guess he wore himself out! :)

It was also nice to get out of the heat. It's been so hot lately, like unbelievably hot. Can't wait until the a/c is up and working. I don't think I would make it with my sanity in place, through August.

I think I'm going to sleep. I need sleep. Of course it's still about 90 in here so it might be hard to sleep, but I sure need to try! :)

more words

I know it's not terribly interesting, but I am enjoying taking note of Paul's new words.

Yesterday it was Pickle. And he has also started saying Potty. Too cute.

Also in Paul's little world he has some fans. And also people he loves. My friend Megan that I meet working at Casey's, she's still there and every time we go in there he dives for her!

As for yesterday. A very uneventful day. Just very hot. We thought we were going to be able to get the parts for the A/C, but it didn't work out. Hoping to rig something up this weekend though (Chip's weekend that is - Tues., Wed., and Thurs.). Kind of amazed we have made it this far. I just don't think I can do it much longer, especially with August still ahead of us!


Friday, July 18, 2008

new word of the day

Paul has been learning new words like crazy lately. Today it was 'flower'. We were outside with Chip messing with the crayfish/crawdad holes we get in our yard. I picked a clover flower and held it for Paul to smell. He took it from me and held it for me to smell and called it a flower. I wasn't sure that's what he said until a few minutes later when we were over by the mail box and he pointed to a big Queen's Anne Lace and said it again.

He learns every day, so much and all on his own. It's simply amazing! His mind is constantly working and putting pieces together.


daily ponder

Why do cats have to pee in a bed? What about the bed draws a cat to say "hey, this is a GREAT place to pee - I WANT to be peed on" Even though there is a huge litter box and also a person sleeping in said bed?

Man, can't wait until we have two rooms! :) Peaceful sleep again!


Tuesday, July 15, 2008

up and down

Things have been rather up and down lately. Haven't posted for fear of being all gloom and doom, and I'm staring to wonder if anyone reads anymore after my long break! :)

Paul is doing amazing things. Learning tons of new words. It's so neat to watch him learn and grow! He knows so much more than he can vocalize!

The other day he had taken off his diaper, both the cover and the prefold (we use cloth). I asked him where his diaper was. Not really expecting an answer. He walked away only to come back with the cover, diaper and snappi! It was so cute!

Today we are enjoying the fact that it's not incredibly humid for a change, hot but not humid.

Oh, and Paul pooped on Chip's bed today. LOVELY! He was diaperless after swimming and came to me with this stuff on his belly, looking at me like 'I don't know what this is or how it got him, but please fix it mommy'. Anyhow, I'll end on the laughing note!


Friday, July 04, 2008


They are my joy today!

We live in the county, which means no restrictions on things like fireworks. We had a three hour show tonight. It was wonderful. Several of our neighbors had tons of fireworks they set off. It was just awesome. The best July 4th in a long time!


hard day

Today was started with bad news, not for me or us, but for a friend. It's really bugging me in so many ways and I just don't know what to feel or say. I'm very upset and sad.


Thursday, July 03, 2008

sleep is nice!

Paul has given me a run for my money with his waking lately. I don't know if it was teeth or what, but he has been waking over 10 times a night! That is a lot. It's actually why I haven't posted my joy the last few days, just been SO very tired that I couldn't keep myself up while putting him to sleep (he sleeps with me and I nurse him to sleep - for those who may not know :) ). I'm hoping tonight is better.

The last few days have been okay given that I've been dead on my feet. Tonight we had dinner with my parents to celebrate Chip's birthday. They gave him a much needed gift certificate to Lowe's, it's like our second home! :)

I have to find a way to learn to be patient with Paul. That is something the last few days have shown me. I have no idea how to go about that, but it is something that I really need to endeavor to do.

I'd say my joy over the last few days was finding a devotion for a dying soul. It has really made a difference to me. I just to perfect my 'offering up', as I don't think I really know how to do that. I think that I have some idea in my head, but that it's not really how it works. But the devotion is what gets me started in the morning and I find myself excited to say my morning prayers and adopt my dying soul for the day, it really helps get through the day.