back to 'normal'

Tomorrow Chip goes back to work, so all will have to go back to normal. I'm pretty sad about that. It's been nice being able to rest when needed and spend lots of time with my babies :). Also him going back to work means LOTS of it just being me and the kids, so kind of lonely. Right after the birth, for the first week it was beautiful out, and now that it's going to be all lonely here it's the crummiest weather possible! Cold, damp, raining and dreary, just blah. I'm glad he ended up having more time off than he thought.

Dolores was baptised today, it went very well, though she did cry for a large part of it, she was hungry. Glad she is baptised though, now just to get the other two parts finished up, marriage prep stuff and Chip's conversion stuff. Still need to find out if we have a waiting period or not on the marriage, didn't get a chance to ask Father today.

And for those who may not be on facebook and would like to see some pictures, here are a few :)

Sleeping on her first day.

Paul getting closer and starting to think she's 'okay'.

Finally realizing that Dolores is okay and not scary :).

Me and the kids, still feels weird saying that!

The two of them sleeping the same way, hands over the head, and of course the spot that I would go. It sure is warm between two little kids! They are heaters!

Paulism of the day

My parents got Paul the movie Cars, he LOVES it. This morning while trying to convince daddy to put it in, Chip said that the cars were sleeping, trying to put it off a bit, and Paul replied "cars don't sleep in the daytime". He is too smart! Chip said that it's great that his son knows when he's bs'ing him! :)

Julie

wearing me down

Still going. Can't sleep because they are unbearable while laying down. Will try again later when Paul wakes up. Somewhere I need to find it in me to deal with this another day. More organized though and stronger, so I guess that's progress. So glad we didn't tell anyone (besides online people) so that we don't have the phone ringing and people waiting, can't handle that!

I so wanted to enjoy what could have been my last night cuddling with Paul, but it was so hard. I just want to lay down and enjoy him, I'm really, really going to miss having it be just him, giving him the attention he wants/needs when he wants and needs it. Kind of mourning the loss of being able to dedicate myself to just him, not having to split my time. He's my little boy and I just hope he does okay having to share me (and daddy). Maybe no one else really felt this way, or even gets it. I almost feel like I'm losing Paul, I don't know how to explain that better.

Of course on the other hand, I'm just ready for this to be over. Prayers, good thoughts, anything you have, to help me muster up the mental, physical and emotional energy to get through another day, please send. Also to help with this grief that I am feeling very real right now regarding Paul. I am hoping it's not hindering me and labor.

exciting times

looks like things are starting up. I think. A little early to tell, but I'll try to keep updated :).

Julie

Mice

There is nothing more frustrating than having a ton of cats, and, yes, mice that live in the walls. I guess they must be smart mice or something. We can't get rid of them and now with winter coming and it being colder, I hear them again. Of course both Chip and I have one that lives directly above the head of our beds, lovely. All night long, scratch, scratch scratch. I really think they are going to get shot this year, and I think I'm to the point that I really think a huge hole in the wall is better than an annoying dirty mouse! We have tried so many things, but nothing works, they are still there. I wish the stupid things would just venture out for just a little bit, then the cats could have a snack and the annoying scratching would be gone! Yes, I know that's morbid, forgive me! :)

41 weeks and waiting

So like Paul, this one is staying in as long as possible! I'm just glad that I don't get my hopes on the 'due date'. I'm still not feeling like it's any time soon though. I am hoping it's within the next week just because I'm getting a little worn with the waiting and trying to keep everything in order and neat and tidy, plus I'd kind of like to meet this little person and see how Paul does :). I don't think Chip is handling the waiting as well as I am though, I think he's getting impatient!

Julie

day light savings blahs

I hate the adjustment to the 'new' time. It was dark at 5:30, how depressing is that? I really wish we didn't do this whole switching of time, just messes with people. For us, now the countdown starts to the shortest day so that things can start not getting more depressing with each passing day, and the sun can start shining more :).

Julie