Friday, May 04, 2007

it never ends

today was a bad day. I think I'm the worst mom there can be. and it's hot.

I realize everyone has bad days, and I will too, even with medicine to help out. What really scares me (and makes the bad days worse) is wondering how bad tomorrow could be. Once one little thing gets going in my head, all the bad, negative things just come flooding in. I can't handle them, then add on wondering what tomorrow has in store. Need to find a way to make my self hope for better, not fear for the worst. I feel I need to run away from my own brain. It just makes me this horrible person who I hate, very much.


Julie

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