So a week ago my midwife put me on medicine for post partum depression. I was somewhat uneasy with the idea because I didn't feel depressed or off. Chip and I talked about it and he said he saw it and that I wasn't myself.
I was looking at pictures of a friend who just had a baby and seeing that joy on her face made me realize that I haven't been right since birth, i never had that joy. I took care of my son and did the things a mom needs/has to do, but it was without feeling or emotion.
The last few days have been so much better, that joy and wonder of a new child, a blessing, is there. The love and protective nature of a mom is there, it's great! I am definitely enjoying it.